Do NOT Fuck with my country!

I'm sorry.
I normally don't swear but now the terror has crossed Norwegian borders. Oslo has been bombed, a youth camp has een massacred by an raging gunman.
In a few hours we have gone from being the safest country in the world to having all our security ripped out from under our feet.
We've gone from celebrating Tour de Fance victory Being angry about and rape and integration og foreigners to suspecting everyone and being shocked. i do not believe a single Norwegian citizen ever thought we would have to deal with something like this.
Our pride in being "best" has been spat on. We have been punished simply for our freedom and it is so unfair...
Some presumably intelligent person has planned it all. They have planned to and gone thru with a murder of innocent Norwegians. We are a people who pride ourselves on our tolerance and intolerance has now given us a reason to stop trusting.
several hearts have stopped beating
several lives have ended.
the number is still unknown.
I'm veering between disbelief and anger.

wolf wolf

In Norway there is full out political shit-slingning, normally known as a debate, about the future of wild meateaters.
Wether to reduce the population or allow it to grow.
The main concerns are farming and loss of sheep.

Thing is... In Norway there is a tradition to let sheep run free in the forests in the summer to fatten up. in older times, they used to have herders and milkmaids looking after the animals but theat went out of fashion at the same time as the demands to pay the herders came into fashion...

I know lots of youngsters who would really benefit from a wild and wonderful summer of herding...


But my point is not people and payment for sitting on your arse, chewing straws and babysitting sheep...

The point is.
The politicians can not see beyond the money.

They do not realize what a beautiful creature the wild wolf is.

It is practically hunted to extinction.
About 15 years ago I became passionate about wild carnivores when the norwegian army brought out the BIG guns in the form of a helicopter to kill a pregnant wolf.
She was the last of her pack and that pack was the last actual pack in Norway.
Now there are only a few lonely wolves.
The packs are no more.
There is talk about hybrids and how the wolves in Norway are "Hybrids" being as they are imported or migrated siberian or balkan wolves rather than Native scandinavian wolves...
And therefore we can kill wolves coz they are not native to norway...

BULLSHIT!
Realitycheck Mr. Politician dude...
If the Norwegian government had allowed the Norwegian Canis Lupus to live it would not be so rare and the siberian ones wouldn't find a home here...
The few pure scandinavian wolves left here are inbred and lonely.
And there is no real genetic difference in the scandinavian wolf and the siberian or baltic variety.
It's a bit like comparing Norwegian and Russian human DNA... The Russian people are NOT a different breed just because they come from Russia....
Ok so they have predominantly brown eyes and we have predominantly blue, but interbreeding won't make us any less human...

The politicians also blame the Lynx, Bear and Wolverine for the loss of sheep and have in the past allowed for winterculling of wolverines.
This means digging into the winter den of a wolverine mother and killing her small ones while the mother hibernates.
How is that even protecting wildlife?
It's a bit like throwing a baby boy in prison because he *might* rape a woman when he's a grown man...

and bears...
Largely vegetarian but won't say no thanks to a lovely lamb dinner if it walks into his territory.
who can blame him?
 

it all upsets me a bit.
They have been here since before the last Iceage, and without human egotism and complete lack of regard for anything but our own gain. They are built to hunt and built to last.
Nature needs the carnivores.
Nature does not need humans.
Our dear planet would probably do quite well without us here, but instead, we are here and we are destroying pretty much every wonderful thing we come across...

To be considered a "solid and sustainable" population, a species must count a minimum of 1000-2000 individuals.

In Norway we have 40-50 wolves, 330 bears, 245 wolverines and 385 lynx.

We have a LOT of forest. In fact only 20-30% of our country is farmable or habitable for human activity.
it might go without saying that we have enough room for the wild things too...

PRINCE!!!!!

Prince is coming to Norway 

I love this crazy man!
I dunno why but i've got a thing for androgynous men... like David Bowie and Prince... There is something slightly unhinged about them... like a caged animal running free...
And i love the unashamedly sensual quality of Prince's music.
And it has always been a dream of mine to see him live and now he's coming to Oslo...
Unfortunatelly i'll have to discuss childminders and such and get myself to oslo... not to mention getting tickets! they are only doing a small gig and i will have to get on to the ticketservice pretty fast tomorrow morning to get hold of one...

I will se the man before his hips give way... this may be my last chance...

I mean.. how cool is this?

You have GOT to be joking....

I'm sharing this in sheer horror...

Honestly... how much weird stuff is actually happening in this crazy world?

Blast from the past?

I'm in retro mode these days... when tidyin up i found my old computergame "civilization II" and i could not resist!!!!
I had so much fun, remembering old stratergies and defeating old enemies then starting all over and being all friendly, but getting annihilated by the Indian republic, led by warlord (!) Mahatma Ghandi...
Love it...

it took a unhealthy amount of my evening when i had plans to reherse a new song on my guitar...
we have no TV signal anymore due to the signal being digital and i can't afford/be botherered/will not buy a digibox. Therefore, i am doing all sorts of other stuff rather than being glued to the idiotbox every night... I have the basic entertainment on the internet anyway...
Anyways... The song i'm trying to get right is Espen Linds I want you.
I can not find the chords online so i'm trying to work it out but my music-ear is sadly untrained and i am a bit lost...
I think it's a C-G-F-Am-combo but i'm still working on it...
It is by far one of the most beautiful pop-songs i know. It conveys so much pain and so much desperation and reminds me of loving someone who is totally unobtainable...
Right now i am in a really good place, romantically. But sometimes you just need to be reminded of that butterfly-feeling and the hole in your heart that needs to be filled by just one person.
I just love this song...
despite it's somewhat sad lyrics and moll-tune, it makes me feel so good.
Here it is:

I do have somewhat of a "secret" crush on Espen Lind too tho...
those eyes and that smile just gives me shivers...
If i ever see him live i'll bring a poster saying "I want you coz baby you're so cool" Just to visualize my two fave songs of his...
Baby you're so cool is deliciously "Dirty" in such a naughty way you just can't help being charmed by the innocence and humor of it. he's more than welcome to smell my dirty underwear--- any time espen... you just let me know...LOL
Oh what the hell... i'll add that too...

Enjoy!

Bookreview! Land of the painted caves by J.M. Auel

The story continues the saga about Ayla wand her life in the stoneage. This book is mainly a story of how she becomes a shaman, spiritual leader and her journey to see the cave paintings in the area around where she lives.

The book is slow. It spends 500 pages repeating and re-hashing itself and the previous 5 books.
Don't get me wrong. It's interesting. But i need to admit to myself that certain passages, it does get boring. I was willing the story foreward and i was rooting for the characters to jump off the page as they have in the previous book but they only in brief glimpses come alive!
There are too many characters involved and some of the issues that Ayla had been building up to for 5 books does not come to any resolution. i mean, where is Durc, the child she had to leave behind. Where are te solutions to the Clan/the Others-conflict and why doesn't Jondalar act how he's suposed to!!!
I am disappointed but not without hope that a seventh book will bring my journey with Ayla to a more dignified and not so pathetic end....
Generally i feel as tho this book was a rushed project. It has untill now felt as though i've been reading a second or third draft of a novel in the process of being edited and although i'm not for a second going to say that it's a horrid book i will say that it's a piece of unfinished craftmanship i've been reading.
I LOVE caves. I loved the descriptions of the caves but it did get a bit much and a lot was repeated.
If she had followed the "plains" recipe and embellished the events along the way making the caves into an in-between i think i would have liked the tour better...
But it is an important part of the series mythology and the caves had to be there...
The mothers song was also a bit repetative.
during her calling i was expecting her (hoping rather...) that she would take a spirit-journey and see her son or a solution to the issues between Clan and the others, but instead she saw what every other animal on the planet knows insstinctively.


The series is kinda my "guilty pleasure". A lot of my friends see it as an embellished Harlequinn series and it's been described as "housewife-porn" by more than one of my friends but i can't help being addicted... it's been my "drug" from a very early age!!! This book was a bit like giving an alcoholic a flat non-alcoholic beer to staunch his thirst for more...

But i still LOVE the book for it's connection to a fictional universe i've often daydreamed i could be a part of. I've spent weeks in the forests trying to build myself a cave-man-life (to no avail as people would come with rations and flashligths and other modern equipment, plus the fact i couldn't make flint tools and had to use a modern knife...and matches... But hey... i tried...)
Whenever my life has been tough, i have returned to Ayla. not necessarily reading the books again but imagining how she would deal with the situation.
I could not have made it thru my teens in one piece without Auel's fiction. I would not have thought of loosing my virgintiy as first rites and therefore feeling sooo special the next day if i hadn't read those books. I'm pretty much the only one of my friends who had a peaceful and serene "first rites" as a result of thinking of it in terms of a ritual, not a random act of sex...

I have LIVED these books and been OBSESSED with Ayla's story since i was 12. it taught me soo much about independence and trusting your heart! It has mede me tolerant towards people of different skintones, sexuality and beliefs and it has made me who I am!
I LOVE these people. I even had a long relationship with a man which started because he looked like what i'd imagined Jonde to look!!!!

But i will not, despite it's repetative nature, give up on this novel.
I still LOVE the series and i probably always will. What I'm missing and thought this book was lacking was closure.
There is a lack of ending and a lack of resolving.
I miss finding a solution to where she came from and what her original name was. I miss finding a solution to the Clan/others conflicts and i miss her knowing what happened to her son.
as i say... it resembles a second draft gone straight to press...

I hope Auel, despite her ripe age of 75, will finish the series with a final book that takes us to the end of Ayla's life in a more dignified manner. this book was below Ayla's worth. we as readers and fans deserve a decent finale....

Happy birthday to me!

Yesterday i turned 33.
i can not believe it...

33....
there is so much stupid in my past and so much responsibillity in my future...
i am happy... don't get me wrong... i just don't feel ready to be adult...